2003-03-01 - 8:31 p.m.
I had the most bizarre dream last night: I was watching 'Buffy' (I suppose I should mention that Faith was on because, well, I suppose my Faith infatuation is notable) and the First was trying to overtake the Scoobs by putting a blanket in a trunk of a car. And the blanket was one from my house. I don't get it on many levels. Also, I dreamt that someone forced me to write Faith/Anya. Maybe I will one day; after all, I do like Anya. And Faith. Yes.
Moving on.
The week has kinda been bouncing between being awful and being good; Monday sucked on so many levels. Today was fine. Yesterday, I saw 'Talk to Her' which was all kinds of fabulous. Wednesday was pretty good (and it wasn't just because of 'The West Wing' although I will talk a little more about 'TWW' later). I guess things will never run entirely smooth.
But, on an unrelated note, can anyone explain to me how Bruce didn't win Album of the Year at the Grammys? Granted, I like Norah Jones, but Springsteen's disk kicks her disk's ass. But it's so decent and goodhearted, that it can't attack another.
Um. Anyway. Point is, Springsteen should've won. There is only so much Jersey can be proud of; now, they can't even give our boy a Grammy? And, yeah, I know he won *other* Grammys that night -- but let's be honest: this year's Grammys will be remembered (if it's remembered at all) as the year Norah Jones beat Springsteen.
Anyway. Ooh, someone's putting together a rec page and asked to add me to it. That's damn nice, for a host of obvious reasons. But, has anyone ever said no to a rec site? I can't imagine why one would be refused. "No, don't tell people you think I don't suck!"
Wow, that was a crappily constructed sentence. No wonder one's said it.
And from the "Kevin Spacey is a Hypnotist" file, I almost told someone that 'The Life of David Gale' is worth seeing for him (and Laura Linney), but I caught myself before I did damage to the innocent. Damn you Spacey, for being so good that I almost forgot how much I hated your movie.
And, most likely, causing me to buy this crappy movie when it comes out on DVD.
It's really not a good movie -- so, yeah, I agree with the critics, most of whom are getting a beating on the Spacey lists. You know, just your normal "Ebert sucks!" sorta stuff, decrying all those who dare say a bad word about the film. So yeah, 'tLoDG' is a film I won't be discussing on the lists anytime soon; although, I suppose I wouldn't get jumped on. After all, I have nothing but good words to say about Mr. Spacey. However, it's probably safer to just stay out of it entirely.
In fic news:
1) I'm trying to write Leo/Cliff. Really, I just hope to inspire someone to write better L/C; after all, I am semi-responsible for people writing some of the odd pairings I've tried. Or, so I've been told. Granted, this may not work now that I'm *trying* to inspire people to write a pairing, but I will try. I will.
2) I'm writing Donna/Toby/Josh, but it's really Toby/Josh. I'm on a little bit of a T/J kick as of late, which would be fine if I hadn't read all of the T/J stories a couple of times already. So, yay, second attempt at threesome fic! Granted, it took me *months* to finish the first one, but that did get a good reception. So yay, second attempt at threesome fic that won't see the light of the day for a long while!
3) I'm trying to figure out what I'm better at. Slash? Het? Parody? Angst? Um, threesomes? I don't know. You know, I wonder how much fic I've written by now. Must do tally at some point in the future. (/tangent)
4) I've come to a decision: I'm posting that stupid 'Ed' Carol/Frankie thing. It's all AU, it sucks, but I see it as revenge for setting a whole episode inside Ed's 'lucid dream.' I mean, the fuck? Taye Diggs and Hall and Oates? And, could he have said, "It's my dream, you have to do it!" a little more? Please! I didn't get sick of it at all.
Yes, I will post. I will post with a vengence.
In related news, I loved 'The West Wing.' It just went by so fast, and I was sad when it was over. Not even sure *why,* but the ep really worked for me. I'm not sure if I like it as 'Sam's final episode,' though -- I just can't see him gone after this, but I guess he will be.
I shall miss you, Sam.
And, also, I'd really like some Amy/Abbey. Just 'cuz.
Now, memes.
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Which fandom would you burn at the stake if such a thing were possible?: None. Even if I don't understand it (for instance, I will never, ever understand the need for 'Pokemon' fic) or had a bad experience, I ain't gonna start torching stuff.
Which fandom would you roll around naked in like so many $100 bills, if you could?: The West Wing! Because I wuve it so.
Describe your dream fandom (ie, list-based, LJ-based, filled with True Believers, filled with fandom_wankers, etc.): List based, filled with a bunch of generally smart, decent people. They'd be open to uncon pairings, play with convention, and not call me a whore.
Name five people who you'd want in your fandom: Um...I was going to make a stupid 'Bachelor' reference, but I won't. Let's just say I'd like any of the people mentioned on my fic site's links page to join.
Name five people you'd stab if they joined your fandom: Okay, not really people but types. 1) Flamers -- also known as the people who call me a whore. 2) People who can't use spell check. 3) People who can't spell out words. ie, writing a sentence like: "lana said to clark i got to talk 2 u and then they went 2 the place." Or something like that. 4) People who write artless smut. ie, "I sucked his cock and he licked my pussy and then we had hot sex all night." And I actually did read a scene like that one. It crushed my soul. 5) People who write Amy as the spawn of Satan. Look, if you hate her, don't write her, okay? We'll all be happier.
Have you ever flamed anyone?: I kinda flamed a flamer once. Actually, twice.
Did they deserve it?: Yes. Well, maybe. I felt a little guilty afterwards, but I pacified myself with the knowledge that 1) they struck at me first and 2) if they even read my responses, they didn't give a shit what I think. And I was very distressed by getting flamed. But, anyway.
What's the biggest regret of your fannish history?: Writing a Mary Sue early on in my fic writing career. I was seventeen, though. Does that make it less evil?
How bad was the worst story you ever put out for public consumption?: Bad. I'd say the aforementioned Mary Sue is so bad my teeth hurt just thinking about it. And, no, you can't read it at my site. And, if you do find it anywhere else, please don't mention it, okay? Thank you.
What's the meanest thing you've ever done in your fannish history?: I don't think I've ever done anything really mean. I'm fairly affable.
Have you ever dated someone you met via fandom?: No.
Have you ever killed someone you met via fandom?: No.
But you've wanted to, right?: Um...not really.
If there was a Women/Men of Fandom calendar, would you pose naked for it?: No! It would scare the children. And no, I don't know what children I'm referring to.
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Now, apologies -- you've seen these on the SotU list, various lj's...now, it's my turn to make amends to the characters I've done wrong.
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Dear Donna,
I'm sorry I've made you make out with *deep breath* Faith, Leo, Josh, Toby, Jed, Sam, Cliff, Amy, CJ, Margaret, Ginger, Mandy, Ainsley, Joey (albeit in a parody setting), and Laurie. I'm sorry that I have plans to pair you with just about everyone, and that that will probably extend to characters that I like from other fandoms. I'm sorry about the threesome fic, including the sex court joke. I'm sorry about the second threesome fic, and I'm sorry that you will probably be involved in future group sex situations that I write.
I'm sorry that I sometimes overplay your goofy-ness. I'm sorry that I sometimes make you borderline suicidal. I'm sorry that you're often gay. I'm sorry that I'm mainly making you bounce between Leo and Amy, thus making you some sort of bisexual Ping Pong ball. I'm sorry that when I'm writing an angsty pairing from the other person's POV, I tend to write you as some vaguely uncaring obscure object of desire.
I'm sorry that you never make out with Josh anymore; but, you know what, I'm taking back my apology about making you have so much sex with Leo and Amy. They make up for lack of Josh loving; exceed it, maybe. I'm sorry that when I got a couple of emails saying essentially, "I hate Donna on the show, but I like your story" I felt really proud. I shouldn't revel in others' dislike of your screen persona. I'm sorry about those Jerry Springer stories; or, at least, the one you were in.
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Dear Charlie,
I'm sorry I only wrote you as a main character only once, and that that story has the phrase 'Woke Up Gay' in the title.
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Dear CJ,
I'm sorry that I wrote a CJ/Donna story where you barely appeared and you had no dialogue. I'm sorry that I was happy when Simon died. I'm sorry that I don't write you that much.
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Dear Abbey,
I'm sorry that I never write you at all. Oh well. Maybe that's the best for all concerned.
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Dear Leo,
I'm sorry about the threesome *and* the Jerry Springer stories, including the 'I'm not gay but my boyfriend is' t-shirt. I'm sorry that you have so much sex with Donna. Wait. No I'm not. I'm sorry that I implied in 'No One is Really Innocent' that nobody had ever gone down on you. I'm sure plenty of people would, and have. Hell, I've written it. Um...moving on. I'm sorry that I have some sort of obsession you being depressed about your history/divorce/current relationship/alcoholism. I'm sorry that I call you a slut in just about every parody I've written. But, um, you kinda are.
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Dear Margaret,
I'm sorry for the threesome fic. I'm sorry for 'Say My Name.' I'm sorry that I always write you as Donna's Friend or Donna's Friend That She Sometimes Has Sex With (both titles registered trademarks of Dumbass Inc.) I'm sorry that the Margaret/Leo fic I wrote was just a rewritten Leo/Donna snippet. I'm sorry you've never slept with CJ. Everyone should have that experience.
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Dear Amy,
I'm sorry that I sometimes overplay your inner bitch. I'm sorry that I put you and I in a sack together during 'Another Given Day'; I'm sorry about anything that may or may not have happened in that sack. I'm sorry that you have so much sex with Donna. Wait. I'm not sorry about that either.
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Dear Josh,
I'm sorry that the last time I let you have sex, it was depressing drabble style. I'm sorry that I keep implying that you're gay, or making the person you love of a different sexual orientation. I'm sorry that I sometimes write you as a bit of a jackass. I'm sorry that you're acting like a bastard in the post-admin story I'm working on. I'll try to even that out. I'm sorry you're never there when Donna's having all the sex with Leo or Amy. C'mon. You know you want to.
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Dear Sam,
I'm sorry the last *three* times I let you have sex, they were all depressing drabbles. I'm sorry about 'Say My Name.' I'm sorry about the Jerry Springer stories. I'm sorry that I can't write you in an interesting way.
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Dear Jed,
I'm sorry that the one time I seriously wrote your POV I was 1) piggybacking off another, better story, and 2) making you depressed over Leo fooling around with your woman.
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Dear Cliff,
I'm sorry that the one time I seriously wrote your POV I was 1) piggybacking off another, better story, and 2) making you depressed over Leo fooling around with your woman. I'm not sorry that you will sleep with Leo, though. C'mon. You know you want to.
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Dear Cliff and Jed,
I'm sorry that Leo's taking your chicks. Granted, I didn't write the original stories, but the concept delighted me so that I had to piggyback off other's stories. So. Sorry. Comfort yourself in the knowledge that Leo will also sleep with you.
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Dear Donna,
I'm sorry Cliff's going to sleep with Leo. Comfort yourself in the knowledge that you sleep with him all the freakin' time. Crap. Does Leo ever take a day off?
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Dear Falsone,
I'm sorry that I beat the crap out of you in that parody...wait, no I'm not. I *hate* you.
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Dear Chloe,
I don't think I've screwed you up that much yet. Yay me!
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Dear Clark,
I'm sorry I write you as a bit of a doofus who's never given much to do. If only I could write m/m slash better; then, I could write some nice Clark/Lex, and I wouldn't need to make this apology.
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Dear Scott,
I'm sorry you're often depressed. But hey, that's true on the show, too.
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Dear Rory,
I'm sorry you're only written as 'girl others want to make out with.' I'm sorry I never let any of these people make out with you.
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Dear Bayliss,
I'm sorry about the Mary Sue. Really, really sorry.
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But I'm not sorry that this entry's coming to a close.
Bye.
